Goddamn it, I'm not meant to be writing about cycling anymore!
I think, if I'm trying to communicate and explain the enormousness of the sacrifices required for us to have ponies over the past six years, I can explain it by simply saying, "I wanted a cycling cap in all that time of cycling"; Well as soon as it became a thing, which it did pretty quickly. But I couldn't afford one - I was going to say "justify" one, but that was obviously a lie.
I've just bought a cycling cap. It is a very awesome one. I thought, "What the hell, I can wear it even when I'm not cycling; which is still my plan" - I've earnt that; the rules do not apply to me.
It cost just £10.